rosh hashana

tomorrow night will be rosh hashana, the begining of another year. Another time, anther chance for us. But why is it so hard to change what we do? And how do we know what the right thing to do is? I'd like to become a better Jew. But then i have these questions... Why does wearing stockings make me a better person? Does G-d care if I wear stockings? And talking to guys. Whats wrong with it? When I ask people tell me "it leads to other things." But i've been friends with certain guys for ages and ages, and it hasent led to anything and never will. I've been friends with others too, for lesstime, and there's nothing up with that. So you can't say that all friendships lead to, because thats just a lie. And thats the only thing that people tell me. So does that really make me a better person? G-d put me here with guys... did He really mean for me to ignore the existance of half the population? I'm not so sure.
I don't need anyone to answer all of these question... I just want to state this, and send this out into the black hole of the internet. Thanx for listening.
I hope that all of you forgive me for anything that I did to you this year. I don't know who all is gonna read this, so i can't just make a general statement that i forgive everyone (though i do but i was told that you should tell eache person themself and not just make a very general statement.) Shana tova umesuka... leshana tova tikasaiva vesaichaseima. (not sure if thats the right form but y'all know what i mean.)
Happy New Year!!!!