goodbye's suck
Rafi left last night..... the house is empty. I woke up this morning, and as i walked ny his room on my way downstairs, i saw the open door and empty unmaid bed and thought "hey! look at that! for the first time... Rafi's up before me!!!" and then i realized why his bed was empty.... he was on his way halfway around the world.....
I spent all day thinking that he was about to walk in with his mp3 player plugged into one ear... that he'd come in dancing along with the music, trying to sing as high as kelly clarkson, or along with jojo or even singing the abercrombie and fitch song to make me laugh. When i got downstairs, (ok it was 1 in the afternoon when i came down.... we got home from taking him at 3:30... i couldn't fall asleep till after 4, and then i didn't sleep well) and made a cup of hot chocolate and sat under a blanket, i expected him to show up and steal half the blanket.... if not the whole thing.... and my cup of hot chocolate (ok, so it was freezing when i woke up, ok? and it was raining and gross!!! So i had every right to drink hot chocolate and sit under a blanket, ok??? So stop laughing at me!!) but he wasn't there... it was aviva who came to share.
I know this sounds a little pathetic... he's just away for 10 months... and whats the difference - when he was home he was away all the time... whats the big deal - i'll talk to him on the phone, write, e-mail.... but its the differance of him just being there.... but i guess i'll get used to it.
And this is only the first day....
I spent all day thinking that he was about to walk in with his mp3 player plugged into one ear... that he'd come in dancing along with the music, trying to sing as high as kelly clarkson, or along with jojo or even singing the abercrombie and fitch song to make me laugh. When i got downstairs, (ok it was 1 in the afternoon when i came down.... we got home from taking him at 3:30... i couldn't fall asleep till after 4, and then i didn't sleep well) and made a cup of hot chocolate and sat under a blanket, i expected him to show up and steal half the blanket.... if not the whole thing.... and my cup of hot chocolate (ok, so it was freezing when i woke up, ok? and it was raining and gross!!! So i had every right to drink hot chocolate and sit under a blanket, ok??? So stop laughing at me!!) but he wasn't there... it was aviva who came to share.
I know this sounds a little pathetic... he's just away for 10 months... and whats the difference - when he was home he was away all the time... whats the big deal - i'll talk to him on the phone, write, e-mail.... but its the differance of him just being there.... but i guess i'll get used to it.
And this is only the first day....
posted by Tara at 7:17 PM
4 Comments:
Aww, poor you. I never went through missing my siblings when they left home because
a) i was the one who always left
and b) I'm not as caring as you.
but poor poor you. Mwah. Drink your hot chocolate and revel in a chocolate high.
aww Atara it's okay...the 1st few days are the hardest anyways...it'll pass.. you have ME!!! lol ok just trying to make you feel better (after all I'm your little sis!!) So whenev. ur sad just go on the computer and 89% of the time I'll be there, 10% I'll be on the phone with you, and the other 1% I'll be doing something else (like that'll ever happen!) I luv ya!!!!! mwa X25!!!
-ur lil sis!!!
Tara we gotta set a time!! Please sign on! lol ok well ur not on now and if u don't sign on soon I'll prob. call you or something.....
-ur sis
thanks, guys. i really appreciate your comments. i luv you.
oh, and i just re-read my post... and i made my bro sound really whacked. But he's really not- it's just that those are things that he does when he's trying to get all of us to laugh and whatever. And generally he's not that weird. Ok he is but not like i made it sound like. Whatever.
But thanx, i luv y'all!
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