goodbye's suck

Rafi left last night..... the house is empty. I woke up this morning, and as i walked ny his room on my way downstairs, i saw the open door and empty unmaid bed and thought "hey! look at that! for the first time... Rafi's up before me!!!" and then i realized why his bed was empty.... he was on his way halfway around the world.....
I spent all day thinking that he was about to walk in with his mp3 player plugged into one ear... that he'd come in dancing along with the music, trying to sing as high as kelly clarkson, or along with jojo or even singing the abercrombie and fitch song to make me laugh. When i got downstairs, (ok it was 1 in the afternoon when i came down.... we got home from taking him at 3:30... i couldn't fall asleep till after 4, and then i didn't sleep well) and made a cup of hot chocolate and sat under a blanket, i expected him to show up and steal half the blanket.... if not the whole thing.... and my cup of hot chocolate (ok, so it was freezing when i woke up, ok? and it was raining and gross!!! So i had every right to drink hot chocolate and sit under a blanket, ok??? So stop laughing at me!!) but he wasn't there... it was aviva who came to share.
I know this sounds a little pathetic... he's just away for 10 months... and whats the difference - when he was home he was away all the time... whats the big deal - i'll talk to him on the phone, write, e-mail.... but its the differance of him just being there.... but i guess i'll get used to it.
And this is only the first day....

finally!

#2 is complete! And driver's ed will be done on Friday!!! And then i'll have a party or something.... And drink beer, just so that i can proove that i slept thru all 30 hours.....

Just kidding. Beer is nasty. I had it for kidush once. Blech!

summer

Why is it that before summer starts, we make lists of all the things that we want to do - things that we've been pushing off, things that we mean to do but don't have time for, things that we just push off.... and we save it all for the summer. We say "I'll have plenty of time then! I'll just wait! I'm not really doing much, so i'll just put it off!" But then summer comes. We spend half the summer remembering all the things that we want to do... but don't feel like staring yet. We say, oh, i'll just take a break, read this book for today - tomorrow i'll do it all! But when tomorrow comes, we just keep procrastinating. The worst feeling, though, is at the end of the day, realizinig that you did nothing all day other than read a book or talk on IM or play on the computer or blog. Then you think to yourself, well, duhhh i did nothing! There was nothing to do! But then you realize all the things that you wanted to do this summer - and then that you have done only one or two things on a page long list!!!!!

Things i meant to do this summer:
1. catch up with making my scrapbook
2. put all my pics into albums
3. sew a denim case for my camera
4. sew a purse out of an old denim skirt
5. go into boston with shiffy and sarah
6. take driver's ed
7. get more exercise
8. spend more time outside
9. go to the mall with shiffy
10. clean my desk
11. clean out my closet
12. clean out my dresser


guess how many of those got done?

#6, 3, 2 are all almost done. The only one I'm guarunteed to finnish is 6.
Wether the rest will happen... your bet is as good as mine!!

driver's ed

i'm taking driver's ed. Shiffy and i started on monday. The instructor handed out a scedule today, of what # class was/is when, and it said that this past monday was class 6..... and that next week is classes 1-5. It's ok cuz were going for 2 weeks so we'll go to all the classes anyway, but it's still a little weird. Today we watched a video about the road test. It wsa a simulated test - baisicly they had some dude pretend he was giving some other dude a road test. The real thing is so not like that! for example, on shifra's road test, it was some big state trooper dude who did it. This was just some guy. And they're much more strict than this movie said they were. But whatever.
Shifra is home! She's not going to be home for very long, but it's really nice to have her at home. Also it's a little scary that she was in israel. But then Rafi is going to spend the next year there, so... oh well.
though it's only 5:15, i'm too tired to write any more. And even if i wasn't, i don't have much else to say....

Home again!

Finally, i have returned! I spent the last couple days at Renah's house in Passaic NJ. I went there on Friday morning, on a non-stop bus from Providence and got to NYC about an hour after the sceduled time. I was there until 6:30 Wednesday morn when we left to catch a 7:30 bus back home. Shiffy came on Monday night and slept over with us, and stayed till Tuesday afternoon. Right before we took her to the airport, something happened. I can't wait till i see y'all. I want to show you, i'm really really excited. But i'm not telling you what it is. Well eventually i'll have to tell rivkah since i don't rly see her. OOoooooo i got it. I'll post a pic of myself and anyone who wants to guess can IM me and guess!!! oo i don't have any new pics on this computer. y'all will have to wait till i get on the other one. But now back to the rest of my trip. Sunday morning we got up really really really really early (like 4 or something) and left at 5, and got to the beach at 6. Then we hung out there till 10, and then went back home. It was really funny cuz at 3 in the afternon we fealt like the day was over. But it wasn't it was the afternoon! Renah said to me"ok when my bro gets home he has to take a bath and go to bed" then we both looked at the clock and went "wait a min......... IT'S ONLY 3 IN THE AFTERNOON!!!!!!" it was really funny.
Other than that we watched a lot of movies and played yanuv (NOT yavneh) and easy money and painted photo albums and made sand art flower pots and ate calzones at the pizza shop and bagles at the bagel shop and DIDN'T buy44 oz sodas (we got 32oz instead and i didn't even drink most of that but it was only 99 cents anyway (really $1.06 who would think there's tax on soda!! Theres no tax on it were I live!) and listened to music and all of my mixes a zillion times and i can't remember what else. But it was a ton of fun - even when we were bored cuz we were bored together! But now i'm home and it's nice to be here cuz i missed sleeping in my own bed and all the other wonders of my own house. The only thing i didn't miss was my parents yelling at me to do stuff like get up and clean my room and get dressed. humph. O well, it's a package deal, you can't have one without the other. Too bad....

ST!!!!!!

YAY!! Esty is here at my house, and now she gets the honor of being in one of my posts. (And watching as i put up the post. Ha!) So here I'll post a couple pics from our sleepover. This was just at the beggining - all we'd done was spend ages trying to whack me on the head with textbooks, eat dinner, and go for a bike ride in the semi-darkness. Fun fun, right???? ;-)